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The good, the bad posted : 04/14/09 at 12:50am pst listening to:Modern Moonlight - The Dresden Dolls

“Everyone was messaging like it was going out of style, God, I love communicating, I just hate the shit we’re missing!”

Yes, Virginia is one of my favourite albums of all time. I remember the first time I heard the Dresden Dolls was in 2004. I saw the clip for coin-operated boy and I could NOT get it out of my head. The year after, I finally looked them up and formed a relationship with their music, lyrics, appearance… Everything was appealing. I think the more I listen to them over the years, the more I love them. A rare and pleasing thing to find… I HATE getting sick of bands. It is depressing.

I saw them live in September of 2006 and it was one of the greatest experiences of my life. They performed with the Red Paintings, another amazing band. If you have time, get a hold of their songs “walls” and “the streets fell into my window”. Chaotic and beautiful. If you want more, I suggest purchasing this album
(Walls)



The thing I love the most about these guys (other than their geisha-esque makeup) is the fact that they allow fans to paint on canvases and people on stage while they perform. Paint to the music. It is INCREDIBLE. One of my goals is to get to do this.

I am absolutely in love with Alexandra and I want to have her babies. Her latest set “the girlfriend experience” is simply one of the hottest things I have ever seen. It hurts at the same time as it pleases. I desire to obtain her perfection whilst I desire simply to view it. Blissful in ways. Swoon with me?

I just got my lip waxed. I REALLY need the sides of my face done too (yay for being half Italian) but I could only afford the $8.95 for my lip. Sad, right? I love being waxed. It is painfully satisfying somehow. I guess it is so good because the results are far better than those of shaving or any other method. If I had the money I would get laser hair removal!! I am getting a XXX on Thursday because pay day is Wednesday, and I can hardly stand the wait. I fucking despise having pubes and the second I get it all removed I am going to shoot a few DIYs and do a few pro shoots for magazines and my portfolio. Wish me luck for all of the above ^_^

Here is a preview of one of my outfits for my upcoming DIY’s. I got these shorts from Cotton On Body – an amazing lingerie and sleepwear store. They have the cutest products, and everything is ultra affordable. These shorts look like they are half-skirt. They are so fucking cute and remind me of French stuff… not sure why, but they do. Maybe it is their resemblance to the bottom half of a French maid outfit? I have a great idea to go with these and I can’t wait to get shooting.

What do you think?





Today our very own Monnie was featured in People and Zoo magazines… Way to go, you hot biatch!! Naturally, I dragged my ass out to buy these and support her. Woot!

Soon, both of us will be featured in ZOO for Stripsearch. The photos for this feature are amazing, so keep a look out for these amazing shots. All the excess photos not used in the magazine will be emailed to us, so we can use them on whatever we want. I am almost more excited about this than I am about being in the mag itself. Almost….. Anyway, here I am promoting one of my favorite girlies >_<



I am so lucky to have two hot GodsGirls in my city. It just so happens we all love video games, which I find to be a very sexual rarity.

I have sad news about SizzlingCamGirls… I was hell bent on doing it as you would know if you followed my journals closely. I took raunchy photos with my webcam all the time, practicing my flaunting and the like. I had a blast. I chatted to friends and put this to practice. Unfortunately I have had such financial difficulty lately… I work about 10 hours a week and am living off approximately $150 a week. When you combine this with laptop repayments, petrol to get to work (my work is miles away and my area has NO public transport, literally) phone bill and food expenses, I have nothing left to buy a suitable-quality webcam to use. Pay-day basically covers the basics. It feels like pocket money. As it is, I’m meant to be paying my parents board and my car loan (including rego and insurance) and I can’t even afford that. I feel awful about it.
I kept putting off saying anything final, like “I can’t be a camgirl”, because I hoped something would work out, or that I would get published in a mag and get about $200, which would be enough for me to get a new cam with.

It’s come to the point where I have yet to log on to SCG and I feel like shit for letting people down. I think I am going to have to be removed from the site because there is no way I can get my finances suitably sorted. Going to send the e-mail now. =(

I was talking to my new partner about this and he confessed he was glad, because he didn’t want people perving on me. Im like dude.. I am naked on the internet. He, however, said this was different to performing on cam. “It’s in real-time” he said. While I get his point, I am pissed. I hate partners thinking they can tell me what to do, or influence my life decisions in such a way. I mean, if I had the guts, I would be a stripper in a heartbeat. In his defence, he was really kind about it and said he was not going to stop me doing anything. But he was all sulky and unhappy about it afterwards. I am fucked off because I now find myself wondering – if I DID have the money for a cam, would I be game enough to get one, given current circumstances?


Life is a bitch sometimes.

 

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Matilda
04/14/09 01:02am pst

i love the dresden dolls

when i saw them i met them got their autographs amanda was all nice and hairy as usual and brian omg i wanted to jump his bones

 

those shorts are the cutest thing

i needs me some new cute undies and such

 

Neko
04/14/09 02:45am pst

Yeah, cute undies are incredible.

Brian really is amazingly hot, isnt he? I thought Amanda was much cuter in person also.

Monnie
04/14/09 02:14am pst

Aww you're such a babe! I totally saved that pic and if there weren't any boobs in it I would so throw it out there on MySpace haha <3

I can see what you mean about SCG. That's like when Sime was fine with GG but didn't want me to shoot for People cos it wasn't good enough for him. Either set a line and compromise or fucking deal with it!

PS you totally missed the best Girls of the Playboy Mansion marathon yesterday

Neko
04/14/09 02:43am pst

Haha it is a cute photo. I am totally touching your vagina. I miss watching GOTPM. Still on season 4. In season 5 you get to see Holly and Hef break up!

Monnie
04/14/09 03:27am pst

That's a bit sad. Kendra's getting her own show!

Neko
04/15/09 02:00am pst

I HEARD

I WAS SO KEEN

but at the same time, sad

because she is a lot cooler in seasons 1 and 2 than 3 and 4. she gets... REALLY really thin and less funny, more bitchy...... she made a lot of comments about how she cheated on hef all the time. you kinda know she was totally in it for the money and the fame and nothing else. whereas holly was obsessed with being hefs one and only, whether or not she truly loved him, she definitely cared for him. as did bridget.

wychlea
04/14/09 02:16am pst

I wish I had shitloads of money so I could just buy shit for everybody.  That would make me happy.

Those panties are so cute and sexy!

I like The Red Paintings - I've been checking out their stuff because you mentioned them.  They appear to be located here in L.A., too.  They do a wonderful version of  "Mad World", which is one of my fave songs.  Thanks for the music tip!  : )

I think you're just lovely, Neko.  Honest and true.

oxox

Neko
04/14/09 02:41am pst

I love their rendition of mad world. They are amazingly nice people too =)

I wish I had shitloads of money... I think it's a common wish. Luz yoo Wylie Coyote!

wychlea
04/14/09 02:46am pst

Hee hee.  <3

TommyCinLA
04/14/09 02:26am pst

U ROCK!

Neko
04/14/09 02:46am pst

WOOT

*starts a mexican wave*

TommyCinLA
04/14/09 03:16am pst

Whats a Mexican wave?

U R REALLY SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

Neko
04/15/09 02:01am pst

LOL, youtube it!!!!!!!

murderface
04/14/09 03:28am pst

if i were even remotely half as hot as you are, i would be a stripper, too. the money would just be entirely too infatuating. i couldn't stand it.

 

i think that you could do whatever you wanted, and still find a dude that was cool with it all. and in all honesty, dudes are always fantasizing about shit, but when it comes down to it, they never stand up to what they've been saying. lol. dudes are lame... and a dime a dozen.

i <3 you, neko. don't ever change. <333

Neko
04/15/09 02:31am pst

the money is so fucking tempting. the confidence i lack is the barrier here.

i really, really like my new man though. like really. like he would be perfect if he had no jealousy over my modeling things

Annaliese
04/14/09 05:01am pst

your webcam looks fine to me.

Neko
04/15/09 01:58am pst

it is the one attached to my macbook. the quality is not too high but if you say it works..... i might have to re think my plans...

TheSquall
04/15/09 02:08am pst

 I know that's what Liese uses for her OHC cams... the quality isn't AMAZING but it still is good for webcamming.. and it won't use a ton of bandwidth either.. cuz you crazy aussies don't have any :(

 

Stupid slow internet in Australia.

Neko
04/15/09 02:25am pst

you know our net seems fairly good.... i cant fucking imagine what it would be like over there. *sigh*

TheSquall
04/15/09 06:38pm pst

I mean, it may seem good. But when I was in a Global Gossip doing my internet browsing and facebook picture uploading, it took a LONG time to upload pictures.

Annaliese
04/16/09 12:34am pst

i switched to a diff cam!

TheSquall
04/16/09 06:23am pst

You're killiing my attempts at getting her to use hers!!! :P

Neko
04/17/09 06:57pm pst

 I WANT TO CAM OMFG.

Annaliese
04/16/09 12:35am pst

yeah the picture quality on that cam is good as long as you have a good light source. evelyn started off with a lower quality cam than that and then upgraded once she was making money. the only thing that sucks about the macbook cam is the audio can be sketchy. alexandra used hers the whole time though with no problems for the most part and did well.

blacksofa
04/14/09 10:34am pst

You should wax your lip yourself!  It saves a lot of money over time. 

This is what I use-

http://www.sallybeauty.com/GiGi-honee-wax/GIGI23,default,pd.html

with a heater - http://www.sallybeauty.com/wax-warmer/SBS-448510,default,pd.html

 

Its awesome because it will cost like 40 bucks at the beginning, but then after you use it 4 or 5 times it's basically paid for itself!

Neko
04/15/09 02:35am pst

i thought of this but i am usually too scared to do it myself. ill sit there wincing in anticipation before i even rip. gah! its not a bad idea though... ill definitely look into it, so thanks <3

Maddox
04/14/09 12:04pm pst

nice one on 'zoo' cutie <3

Neko
04/15/09 02:31am pst

thanks gorgeous =)

Bonny
04/14/09 12:08pm pst

lov elove love the dresden dolls, and alexandra too! yesm

Neko
04/15/09 01:58am pst

=D is she not delicious!?

TheSquall
04/15/09 01:01am pst

 You look hot in that DIY neko. :D

 

I was hoping you would be able to get started on SCG. I even have credits for you :-( oh well. haha. still love you anyway.

 

<3

Squall in the box ;-)

Neko
04/15/09 02:32am pst

what DIY? you mean i would look hot in that outfit in a diy? MUAHAH

well if i am on there soon i will let you know =D

TheSquall
04/15/09 06:37pm pst

yes... yes... did I say it wrong? : it was late and I was tired. haha <3

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