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for the first time in a long time i am on my own, but not alone, and i really needed it.
ive had some exciting job opportunities in the past few days, so if anything happens there ill be sure to let you all know.
im truly sticking to my goal of surrounding myself with positive people, and some of my old friends from school and i are hanging out this weekend. one of them came into work today simply for hugs and chats - bless! she and her boyfriend, of whom she was seeing for about the same time josh and i were together, were about to break up. she came back about half an hour later and was single. and my god, while i truly felt for her and understood exactly why she made her decision, i was really glad i had somebody to relate to.
she is one of the few people who i went to school with since year 8 (some ive known a little longer) who have stuck by me ever since. ive been through some majorly dramatic events in my life with these people and they still care about me and want to know me.. NOT TO MENTION they accept my love for nudity. what champions!
josh came over tonight as we had some exchanging of belongings to do. i had his digital camera and he had my cetaphil face wash, amongst other things. it was amazing, and i could not have envisioned a smoother transition to "friends". there is definitely an intense love there, but he said he understood i was doing this for the "right" reasons (as opposed to his idea of the wrong reasons) and he respected it completely. we then proceeded to have a yarn about work and other things that friends talk about. before he left he told me if i ever wanted to "bone", we could. haha. i dont think ill take up the offer, its bound to make things hard. no pun intended.
thats about all the updating i have time for, i need some serious R&R in the forms of massage, magazine reading and serious hair straightening. "me" time, anyone?
note - i wrote this blog perfectly and i accidentally hit back on my browser window. FUCK YOU INTERWEBZ.
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xMangox650x
the friends i had before 8 yrs old, even middle school, and most of high school are no longer really my friends. we went into different scenes, but my new friends are awesome.
good luck with the R&R
(i hate hitting "back" and having to retype everything)
MojoJunkie
It is always hard to find people who truly believe in you. I am so happy you are surrounded by people like that. It is a smart thing not to have sex with your ex. It will always lead to problems in the end. I am really happy for you. You are a really caring person.
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Wow, I'm so glad you have someone to relate to, AND that you and the ex can be friends. That' s not so easy sometimes. Good for you!
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