Lola

to Ryan Cabrera??

He went from this...

to this...

How is that the same person?!

I'll be seeing you Thursday.
Show me a good time, k?

was pretty much just a result of total exhaustion and almost 48 hours of no sleep.
Haha...thank god that pity party is over.

I'm getting so stoked for Bamboozle.  My best friend and I are booking the hotel and ordering tickets this week.  I just have to go to the bank first so I don't have to give her $200 in ones.  haha.  I just found out that Panic at the Disco is playing and if you know anything about me you know how 14 year old school girl they make me feel.  

Scary Kids are also playing...what's up awkward situation.  Hopefully, I can avoid a certain someone who I'm not on the best of terms with.

My exboyfriend has been IMing me all afternoon from his new flavor of the month's apartment.  He's got balls.  Too bad for him, I don't ever want to see them again.

I've been talking to this new guy.  I really care about him a lot and he'll probably read this, but I'm gonna be blunt.  We met on myspace a few months ago.  He claims to love me but won't let me come see him or even come see me when I offered to pay for the plane ticket and won't really give me a good reason.  When we first started talking, it was obvious that he collected girls and he seemed to talk to all of them the way he talked to me...then I started seeing a lot of GodsGirls on his friends list.  That really kinda weirds me out.  When I said something to him, he just deleted his account  (sorry babe, that doesn't eliminate the shady factor).  Lately he's been asking me for money...I really hope that's not all he's after.  I believe him when he says he wants us to work, but when I put this all down on paper...it looks really bad.  How could we possibly work if our relationship is just over the phone?  I need your opinion guys...I think I already know what you're going to say though.

I'm trying to tell myself that it's just my trust issues sending me the red flags.

I'll finally have a laptop tomorrow (for my birthday!) so I'll be able to burn some photos onto a cd.

Feels like it's been a long time coming.  I'll do my best to make it worth it :)