Livia's journals

i have been doing lots of shooting the past few weeks, and am getting really antsy.  today i started getting some stuff back from:

- the underground show marla, eddie, and i performed in:

the official group shots



and some candids




- the shoot i had last weekend in Vancouver with Nuno Silva
, with wardrobe supplied by Flaming Angels:



- and the photoshoot I had on Saturday night with Favourite Sin (Ruzz):



my week was umm... a week from hell.  seriously, my office is the most ridiculous shit show ever, especially when my boss takes time off.

saturday night i celebrated the end of my work week by having a shoot with ruzz, we hadn't really discussed what we were wanting to do.  we started off sort of slowly, but soon we managed to come up with a really interesting concept for some shots, which i am really excited to see.  these shots involved us running out to safeway to buy a chocolate cake at 11PM, i was wearing nothing but a trenchcoat and some cute frilly underthings.  i winked at the security guard and i thought he might die.

to be truly avant garde, ruzz decided to park haphazardly in the handicapped spot, stating that no gimps were out at this time of night on a saturday. of course, because we only ran into the store for 5 minutes, there was no ticket when we got back out. 

i want to say more, but i do not want to ruin the suprise of the photos for you, so i will wait.

it was about 2AM when he dropped me off, i was woken up early to go for mothers day brunch with my family.  it was nice, after that we went shopping with my mom, she never ever buys new things except for when we drag her to the store and make her.  we found her lots of cute spring and summer stuff, but the highlight of the day was when we finally found a purse that she liked, and have now i believe successfully rid her of the terrible fanny pack days.

do any of you have relatives that you just don't get along with? mine is in town right now, she is my moms older sister and she is one of the most self-righteous people i have ever met.  the worst part about it is that everything she thinks needs to be ranted about endlessly, and almost everything she says is so ignorant i can't even believe it.  most of the time i can keep my mouth shut and bear it, or tastefully disagree, but sometimes she says something so ridiculous i blow up.

that happened last night, while my sister and i were preparing dinner.

she decides to start talking about how workplaces are being blasphemous by choosing to call their holiday parties "holiday parties" instead of "christmas parties", because canada is a christian country and as such anyone who lives here must abide by it.  they can celebrate whatever they celebrate on their own time, but christian holidays are christian holidays and trying to be inclusive of other people is wrong.

i am sure i don't have to go into detail about what pissed me off about that, i almost flipped.  i didn't yell or anything, but i sure as hell gave her a piece of my mind.  everyone has opinions, i understand that, and everyone is entitled to their own.  however, you can't just start spouting off this type of bullshit while you're a guest in someone else's home.  how do people miss out on a little thing called TACT?

then she has the nerve to say that i just argue with everything she says to be spiteful, really, that's not what it's about at all.  i just finally am old enough to decide that i am not always going to let her stupidly fucking ignorant rants go un-matched.

i slept in late today, and now i am dicking around and being lazy until eddie picks me up.
we are going to go to her new house and cook dinner and catch up because it's been so long and i miss herrrrr!

tomorrow is back to work. ew.

i think that's it!
xo

today has been the kind of day that leaves you rocking back and forth in fetal position clutching chunks of your own hair. 

word, i dragged my inner self to the airport this morning kicking and screaming.

vancouver was so beautiful and green, and i miss the ocean already.  i had lots of fun, i had two photo shoots, saw/met some amazing people, and shopped way way way too much.

LOOK AT ALL THESE PHOTOS OMGZ

hello hostel room


hello first night bar times (w/ godsgirls tee!) marla!


hello dope-face livia!


hello pretty mandy friend!


hello hottiez!


hello awesome!



hello HOT LADY OVERLOAD!


hello morning-face livia!


hello pretty lauren!


hello weird-o marla!


hello sunglass nerds!



hello livia trying to look sexy (and failing, sorry guiz!)


hello pretty blossom trees!


hello interesting buildings


hello livia plus  bamboo!



hello bad attempt at artsy photo


hello 50's diner and 11am nerd floats!


helloooooo bahama mama!



DON'T JUST STAND THERE BUY CANDY.  hello kyle?



hello livia with humidity hair. curlz, yikes!



hello awesome beach times.



hello crazy centaur, four boobs! score!



goodbye vancouver :(



hello window seat!





more later, sleep time now.

i missez and luvz!
xoxo

hai, i am in vancouver. i love this city, i am only here til sunday but holy crap its going to be great.  marla is here too, we are going out tonight with kyle, wheee!

i have a shoot right now, so i have to go.  i will update with lots of sweet pictures and awesome fun times.

also, eddie's first pro set went live.  i was there and saw the magic happen in real time.  what a woman! i loooooooooooooove.

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so... a year ago yesterday i became a godsgirl.  i can't believe it's been a year already, time certainly flies.  i am still as in love with this place as when i first applied.

so anyways, thursday was marla, james, carla, amythia, and mandy's art show.  eddie picked me up at work and we headed over, it was super fun, and there was lots of amazing art.  eddie looked super cute, but was being a mega-whiner because she "went to the gym" or something before hand.  what a baby. hahaha.



that is eddie in front of some of amythia's amazing artwork.



this is a ridiculous picture i took of myself after i got ready and was bored at work.



that is rico with a knife, i think it was covered with cheese.  he is a weird-o.  that is one of james's amazing pieces behind him.

i met a few models in the community that i hadn't met before, but have admired their portfolios for some time now.  i love how close-knit the model community is in this city.

today is rehearsal, eddie will pick me up in a few minutes.  i still haven't showered. i suck.  it's pre-dress rehearsal today, so hopefully we will have our costumes.  i am getting super nervous/excited for the show.  it's in 6 days. eep!

after the show i am going to vancouver, i have booked one shoot for sure, which is going to be paid!. wheee! in this city there is no paid work, so the fact that a photographer is willing to pay you for your time is very novel.  i think i will have a shoot with another photographer that i have admired for a while, which is really exciting as well.  i can't wait to see some people again, i am secretly hoping i will see the 36 year old that was in some of my past entries, but i kind of doubt that will happen. i shouldn't get my hopes up.  oh well, i will get to see kyle! hooray! i hope i can meet up with mia and leyla too, that would make my dreams come true.  marla will be in the city at the same time as me so we can have wicked adventures.   it will be amazing.

i ordered a gg shirt that i think will be coming the day before the show, so i am going to wear it after my set is finished and promo the heck out of the site.

hmmm, i am really trying to get back into creating art.  my friend david (who is a photographer) might let me borrow his camera this week for a few days, which would be really nice.  i might be able to shoot some diy's or something.  after i get back from vancouver i have a few people that are willing to model for me for my photo-series ideas, so maybe i will have some original work to show you soon! 

eddie and myself (and hopefully the other lovely gg ladies) are planning to rent a room in the seediest hotel in the city to shoot some sets/photos in.  it is a picture perfet trashy inn, so i am hoping we will get some fantastic stuff out of it.

also, i have been talking to i.m ruzz (the photographer who took the most recent, amazing photographs of myself that i have been sharing (www.favoritesin.ca), and i might be able to convince him to be a mentor of sorts to me so i can learn things about photographing.  i really hope he comes around. *hint hint*

okay i think that is about it for my random ramblings. 

happy sunday everyone xo

i've been at work since 7:30 this morning, i am definitely not a morning person at all.

sunday was absolutely super, we had rehearsal for the show (it's coming up so soon, 11 days!).  eddie came too, because we need to start practicing with her too and perfecting the acting part of it. we skipped out on rehearsal a bit early to go shopping for underwear to wear with our costumes.  after we found them we dicked around the mall a bit, amie went to pick up her boy and marla, eddie, and i went to go have dinner. 

we are seriously just balls of giggles when we're together, waiters seem to love it.  we had a super cute one, who i flirted with the entire meal and then we left his tip in the shape of a heart.  i left my number on a napkin, but i realized i didn't leave my name.  i don't think he would call anyways but i think it's still super flattering to get someones number left for you so i thought i would do it.

after dinner we ran around the empty mall, and took lots of ridiculous pictures.  there are pictures to go with this entire day but seeing as how poor eddie is having computer access issues we can't upload them yet.  they are fun, trust me.

yesterday i had a very productive day.  i woke up early even though it was my day off, around 9 or so.  i cleaned my room (it needed it really badly) and washed my bedding, which also was in severe need.  i needed to take the boots for my burlesque costume to get altered because they don't fit over my giant calves, so i got ready and did that, and then went to the mall from there.

i bought a new pair of jeans (my old pair that i wore all the time started ripping in the crotch, i figured i needed some new ones) and i bought some shirts too, some $5 black flats, and some fishnets.  i also bought 2 cd's, the best of the cranberries and the best of billie holliday. 

i also decided that i would buy myself an exercise ball to use at work instead of a chair at my desk.  i blew it up this morning when i got here, and although i don't know if it will do anything for me health wise, i'm having lots of fun bouncing around on it.  i bought myself some little dumbells too so i'm going to start doing some stuff at work and at home to keep in shape.

i really need to either get my bike fixed and tuned up, or else buy a new one.  i really want to ride now that it's so beautiful outside, i figure i could ride to and from the train station every day instead of taking the bus or walking.  i might also want to get some rollerblades or something.  whenever the weather gets warmer i get all ambitious about being active and stuff, but i never actually follow through with it.  maybe this time i will? maybe not.

carmina, marla, amythia, polymorphic, and mandy are having an art show for their collective on thursday, which i am really excited to go and see.  i will have to bug them about joining, because i have had creative energy pulsing through my veins with nowhere to unleash it.  this needs to change.

okay, i have to do real work now. FUCK.

at least i get off early today.  being home by 3 will be dope.

xo

 

HOLY CRAP.



what, i can be sexy?!
weird.

first off, here is what i woke up to this morning.

keep in mind that unlike some parts of our lovely continent, calgary has been having a lovely start to spring.  yesterday was absolutely beautiful aside from there being a slight breeze.  i looked up to see why no light was coming in through my sky light, only to find it piled high with about a foot of snow. ewwww.

it doesn't look as deep in pictures as it is, also keep in mind that the streets were bone dry until about 6AM.

the snow went up past my boots, that's gross.

but look here, the snow is not past my boots in this picture for a few reasons.  one of them is that it was taken inside, and another one is because it was taken last saturday, when there was no snow on the ground.  i take pictures of my feet when i am drunk, apparently, i remember walking down the stairs and taking random pictures.

just to re-cap, saturday was the night that our lovely photographer carla (aka carmina foto) had her studio warming party.  i got nicely drunk off of wine, and at one point i was forced to drink a can of lucky beer by rico.  the climax of the evening was when, as eddie and i went off in search of a cab home, i was hit from behind with a flying can of lucky.  ohhhh rico.

as i mentioned, eddie was there.  i love her.

marla was also there, and i too love her dearly. she got druuuuuuunk.

apparently there is a face i make in pictures a lot, maybe it's just a face i make a lot in general.  i have been told on occasion that i should be a cartoon character, and i think it's probably because of how ridiculously animated my facial expressions are sometimes.  sometimes it's embarassing, but i can't seem to help myself.

this is the face of which i speak:

here it is AGAIN

i have seen it pop up in many candid drunk photos, it is one of my signature expressions. ugh. hahaha.

as i mentioned in a previous blog, throughout the night rico and i were having grape wars.  spitting them at eachother and what not, at some point i remember there being a cherry tomato in my mouth instead of a grape, i believe rico put it in marlas mouth, who kissed it into my mouth, i wanted more kisses so i tried to steal more.  the problem with that is marla does not like tomatoes, so it took me a while to try to convince her drunk self that i in fact was not going to put the tomato back into her mouth, i was just going to kiss her.  there may or may not have been a reference to chipmunks pocketing food in their cheeks, as an example of what i would do with the tomato whilst said kiss was going on.

okay that is my pointless story.

us calgary ladies are booking our toronto flights tonight, i am so excited i might pee.  i also get to see eddie tonight. yayyyyy!

i get to go home from work in 45 minutes, i hope my boots are dry, i hate putting my feet into wet shoes.  YUCK!

 

another picture from my last photoshoot, i'm stoked on it.

i have to go get ready for work, i need a vacation plz.

today at work has been super busy and hectic.

i just want to take a second to remind everyone (i guess mostly myself) how lucky i am to have such amazing, beautiful people in my life.

 

i am finally feeling creative drive and ambition. it's strange and new, exhilerating and slightly intoxicating.  or maybe that's the wine... hahaha.

xo