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day one of NO tears posted : 03/09/09 at 10:47pm pst

after days of self medicating and escapism, I feel somewhat like my old self. A little dirtier, more cynical, and damaged.
What do I do with new and less improved leyla?
how do you start a new life alone after sharing one with another person?
honestly I am excited about the next chapter in my life. There's just this numbness that washes over everything I come in contact with, I hope in time it subsides. I honestly need a platonic cuddle buddy, someone to remind me that I did the right thing and that I'll find better.

 

it just feels so weird to fall out of love while I'm watching everyone around me fall into it.

 

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Neko
03/09/09 10:53pm pst

oh my god you sound like me, on so many levels.

i did not read your last journal but i assume you went through a very painful break up.

starting a new life is scary.. and the numbness is a self-preservation technique, even if it seems harmful.

talk to me anytime. ill platonically hold you, yes? <3

Leyla
03/09/09 10:56pm pst

yes yes! and if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here lady <3

Saje
03/10/09 01:46am pst

Aww! Sweetie! If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here.

Leyla
03/11/09 03:44pm pst

thanks doll <3

Maddox
03/10/09 06:03am pst

Im sorry to hear this, if i could cuddle you i would.....hope this new chapter brings you what your looking for <3

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