Keegan's journals

I found a deposit voucher from 2 years ago  on tuesday  that i hadn't cashed for over 100 bucks. I was like awesome.

I went to go deposit it @ the bank and they said it would roll over midnight wednesday

i call to see if it went through and it didn't. it "couldn't be processed"

wow, what time, money, and work hours wasted. I really needed this check and I thought it would be a break, but no. prolly some greater force that got bored and decided to fuck with me hardcore.

I would really, REALLY like to know what good will come out of this situation. The chances of a bigger check randomly coming or being found is highly unlikely.

http://www.livescience.com/health/top_10_about_you-1.html

I fell asleep at 4:30 and overslept until 8:30.

I was supposed to go see Harold and Kumar today at 7pm

Damnit damnit damnit

and this was my only chance to get out this week.

I called him twice, but I hope my friend, Steven doesn't think I'm a douche.

From a failed DIY and by failed I mean the f%^&%^& batteries DIED. Oh well, I've got four on the way! woot!
But I didn't feel like doing my hair, so I threw on a wig and I look like a black pocahantas in the last shot, lol.

Mind and Learning

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My (now former) good friend, who tried to hook me up with her ex. Turns out she's still screwing him.
Gross.
Good thing I wasn't interested
I mean, that's YOUR business, but please don't try to drag me into that BS mess.
She kept talking about how I was right for him and how no other girl deserves him,
yet she keeps telling him that she loves him, but saying she can't be with him
like I said, that's YOUR business, just don't drag me into that drama.

Another unrelated story dealing with sex,
my (also no former) acquaintance said that I could shoot DIYs at his house, all by myself
BY MYSELF, i.e. tripod --> no HIM HELP
nice change of scenery, breath of fresh air.
his cousin was gonna be there
I felt comfortable with that
Then He told his cousin to LEAVE!
Then asked me how we were going to do "this"

Me: why can't your cousin stay? I'd be more comfortable

Him: I don't like other dudes around when I have a female nude

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Me: But that's how real "gangstas" hold it down, remember? the video you were
watching yesterday have like 5 naked girls humpin' each other with men all around
(yes, I am trying to use psychology here. he's always talking about what's gangsta)

Him:you musta got me mixed up. i don't like having other dudes around

Me: but I'd feel better if [enter cousin's name] was here

Him: Naw man.

Cousin: what do you want me to do

Me: I can't tell you to stay since this is his house

Dude: stay close by

*cousin left*

Him: You don't feel weird having him looking at you?

Me: Do you know how many people can see me naked online right now? And what, do you have
an possesive complex over me or something?

Him: no, I don't want other dudes around looking at you

I was like, look,just don't touch the camera

He said, I just wanna have sex with you

Me: I don't to, I just want to shoot

Dude: a female cannot be nude in my house with out me touching her and having sex with her

Me: Well, I'm out then.

Him: that's fine

packed up my shit and dipped. guys can be SUCH douches. how low, pathetic, and sorry do you have to be to try and get in  a girl's pants? effin' jerk. i wasn't even naked, thank God. I think the idea he had in mind was, "let's shoot hot personal videos starring you and me". when I made it more than clear that I was shooting PHOTOSETS B

Anyways, I had an amazing time last night. I'm not going to say what happened to jinx it, I just hope that it turns out really well in the long run :-)

I rarely rant on here, but dammit, whatever

Nobody's bitchass likes the same band that I like and wants to go to a show with me
I really, really don't want to go to a concert by myself
Super laim

I even called my ex to see if he wanted to go, but was busy. whatever. he's the only other person that likes them. in retrospect, it'll prolly be best that he didn't go with me

*grunts*

It's prolly unnerving going by yourself. Not only that, but people LOVE to stare at a brownie, that's me, because there's only like 3 of us...ever...at the kind of show i'm going to? Hooray for being singled out visually by my skin color :-(. There hasn't been ONE time when I haven't been pointed out for being black. People always make it a point to point it out. It's just skin color. A fucking life prop.

*rolls eyes*

 I'm thinking about saying fuck it and not going.

Has anyone been to a show by themselves? If so, how did you pass time in between set changes?

I'm going to TRY to have a positive attitude, even though it's difficult stepping into the unknown. maybe this is a blessing in disguise, but that's pretty hard for me to conceive at this point.

:-(

I got stitches on my right pinky on friday
I am right handed.
I am also accident prone
I don't know how many times I've ran my pinky into random things
I had an exam in philosophy today
I hope she can read my handwriting
I have 3 papers due Thursday
This is the worse I've procrasitnated
My stitches won't get taken out until this friday
I see my stitches as an opportunity to use my left hand more :-)
*Get your mind out the gutter :-P*