James's journals

So this week I saw this REALLY GORGEOUS La Perla Bra...so I go into the Shop and try it on...and they only have the small sizes left...and it's like the italian Sizes so it's extra small...like Supermodelsmall...so ofcourse it's too small...so now they will try to order the one I want in my size but I won't know untill monday :-( and even if I can still get my size...it won't be here untill in like 10 days or longer...so then I tried on some other stuff...but either it's just stupid push up Bra's that make your Boobs look huge or then they have weird shaped Bra's or just ones that suck because they are not nice! So after trying like 20 different styles and sizes I gave up...fuck it...I will just shoot in the stuff I have...now I will never blame a Guy for not wanting to buy hot, classy underwear for a Girl if even for us it is so damn difficult...(not that I ever expected that from a Guy anyway ) it's too hard...

But fuck I want that La Perla Bra!!!


I also like Calvin Klein Underwear and Donna Karan...Donna Karan makes beautiful stuff! Ok so much for the new hot Bra...

So...a few weeks ago my friend Eric Lehner was here form London and we met up for some Coffee and a few Photos...I love how he can always do some magic with the Camera and then I look like this...
I have been working like crazy lately...it sucks...I finally have this Weekend off! I don't have any new DIYs at the Moment to send inn but on a more exciting note Kelly is coming over to Europe this Month and it looks like we'll find the time to meet up and maybe shoot some stuff...nothing offical yet, but I am still excited!

I haven't been very active lately for 2 reasons...first is just that work takes so much energy out of me lately and when sitting infront of Computer screens 10 houres a day sometimes I just can't be botherd with the Computer anymore when I get home and I just pass out on my Sofa...and then second...whenever I post Journals no one ever seems to read them except for maybe Neil and one or 2 other People mabye...ok maybe I need to make more interessting Journals but sometimes it feels like you write something and no one really takes a lot of notice so why bother...or then I just keep them short or with Photos...everyone likes Photos :-) and I'm sure you all know how it is...sometimes you also just go out with friends or do stuff or travel or go away for a few days and BAM a week has passed...
I do however try to update somehow atleast every 2 weeks or every week...I am excited for a lot of the new Models especially Tova! I think she is gorgeous! Anyhow will post some other Photos next week, as I am still waiting for some of our holidayphotos and uploading Photos into Photobucket to then copy them into Journal just takes time...but will do soon...hope everyone has a fun Weekend! xoxo James

So...I was on holidays for allmost 3 weeks...now I am back and here are some Photos...more to come...most of them are on my Boyfriends Camera and  I haven't put them on my Computer yet...most of these were in Italy...but when we got home we went to London for a few days...so it's all a bit mixed up...when I get the Came there are some funny Pics of me falling asleep on the Beach and things like that, so will  post more soon...it was great to have allmost 3 weeks  off!  My Grandad passed away in July so all of that was and is still really hard  for me but in Italy I was a bit distracted and it was lovely and warm...it was  hard going back to London...it was the first time I was there again since my Grandads Funeral...so I was happy  my BF came along with me...we stayed in London for one Night and then went down to the Southcoast  to my Grandads house and stayed there 3 days...it felt as if he was  still just in the Kitchen making a cup of Tea or sleeping  in his room or pottering around in the Garden...it didn't even feel like he wasn't there anymore...I guess it takes a while untill you  get used to the house beeing empty when you're there...but we had a  great time...I have so much I could write about...about Italy also...but I will wait untill I get the other Photos, then I can write and add the Photos to the Storys...I worked all Weekend and tomorrow I  have off and can sleep inn! HURRAY!!! I am seeing a friend who lives in London  again for Coffe tomorrow Afternoon , he is also one of my favourite Photographers, his Name is Eric Lehner...but we're just going for a Coffee, he is working on another Project here and only has time for a few houres so no Sets and stuff like that but  yes I am excited to see him again...so that's that and then there is mor ein a few days...ok tata for now Lovers!  xoxo James

I will be in London tomorrow untill Sunday if any of you wants to meet up for a drink...I will be at The Collection with my Boyfriend tomorrownight and then we hit the Bars for drinks...kinda short notice but if any of you are in Central London I will throw a round of drinks :-) we just got back from Italy last Night. I still have about 20 things I have to do before we leave again tomorrow so I keep this short again...xoxo James

I am in Italy this and next week and then in England for a few days so I am only online maybe once a week or so...just letting everyone know, incase anyone was wondering...it's my first real holiday since a year so I am fully enjoying it! Will post longer journals with all sorts of funny stories from the holidays soon...lots of love from Calabria! James

I am back from England. It was very very sad but also it was nice because the whole family got together...I saw Aunties and Uncles at the Funeral that I haven't seen in 7 years, the last time when my Nan died, and all the Neighbours and friends came down and my Brother and I and Mam and Dad we went out to the Pub for food every day because none of us felt like cooking or washing up so we always went out to eat and just drank a lot, Beer and Gin and Tonics and Pimms haha and we talked a lot about Grandad and all the good times and laughed and cried speaking of him...I took abot 10 days off work and I went back again to work this week...I used to always call my Grandad on Sundays, during the week aswell , but ALWAYS on Sunday :-) So this Sunday was the first Sunday I was back and I wanted to ring him and realized he isn't there anymore...I miss him! I saw my Dad cry for the first time in my entire Life at my Grandads Funeral...that was really hard! It was strange because it all went by like a Film, it all feels so sureal still...I cried too, but it's like the big crash hasn't come yet...I don't know if it still will or not, but I think i just haven't completly realized yet that my Grandad is gone now forever...when we were all there my Mam also said, it feels as if he is still just around the corner in the Kitchen making a cup of Tea or something...but he was 93 and had Cancer and we knew one day this would happen...it's just when it happens...you are still not prepared for it...but was comforts me is that we were all there with him untill the end and my Dad was right next to his bed and he just went to sleep...he didn't have any breathing difficulties or any pain, he just slowly stopt breathing and went to sleep...and he knew that we were there. It is amazing really, my Grandad was always really independent and untill the very end he was still completly there with his head/mind. He slept allmost all day in the end because the Cancer made him so tired...but when he woke up. He said hello and told stories from when he was younger or he would just ask for a cup of tea or how everything is and what's new and all...

I am glad we had so many good times together and i am glad he didn't have to suffer long in the end and that he was able to just go to sleep...he never wanted to be put on machines or anything like that. I kinda wanted to put up one or 2 Photos of us...but it feels kinda weird to put up Photos of me and Grandad on here...I don't know...mabe that's silly...it just makes me laugh a bit in a way and I think I shouldn't do it...but anyhow I am back now and my Computer works again too so i have Internet again...xoxo James

My Grandad died...I was going to write more but I don't know what...I probably won't be online this week. Sorry Guys and Girls...love James

Hey everyone! My internet at home is fucked so I haven't been able to comment or post at all lately...I need to get it fixed but my Dad is in England right now because my Grandad is in the endstage of Cancer :-( and I am going this Weekend and my other friend who is usually really good with this shit is in Canada right now...I am really good too but I can't figure out this one...Computer is fine, just the Internetconnection won't work...Phonebills and all were paid so it can't be that, no virus...I have no Idea...anyhow so I am sorry I didn't get to comment on so many of all the new Sets! I can connect with my Phone but its limited and everytime I try to comment or write a journal it won't post over my Phone...so now I am at my Parents for a visit and figured I'd write a quick hello and catch up on some comments...Everything has been so busy lately and my Grandad is dying so my head hasn't really been on to Sets and all that stuff really...but I will try to get a new Set or 2 together again soon....I have holidays the end of August and might find a good spot or Idea for a new Set there and then...apart from that I don't have much news...I worked a lot but the last few days I wasn't well so I stayed at home and ah yeah I broke my hand...so that kinda sucks...but it's allready been 3 weeks so not long before it should be ok again...It's my Boyfriends Birthday on Friday so we'll have a Party...I'll be leaving for England on Sunday...To all the new Girls WELCOME and sorry if I haven't said Hello yet! lots of love! I hope i'll get my Internet working again really soon so that I can be active again more! <3 hope everyone has a splendid day! James

So...it's been a while...I was editing a Set I did last summer yesterday and realised I haven't been on here for some time now...I still can't decide if I should send inn this Set or not...there are a lot of Photos I don't like and I think with the ones that are good I don't have enough for a Set so...maybe I will just have to do a new one this summer...it's only been 2 Months or since my first Set has been posted but it feels like forever...Well the European Footballstuff has finished last Night...YEAY for Spain!!!They won for all those who don't know yet...it's been fun! I like that Summer is here! I love Summer and I don't like Winter...at all...I could write a lot more but I always feel that when a journal is too long no one reads it anyway so I keep it smalltalk for today...xoxo James

So...I aparently my Set was nominated too for one of the best DIY Sets...thats awesome! Right now I am loosing against Kyle though...She is gorgeous but hey if you liked my Set, I wouln't mind stayin in there for a little bit longer :-) So if you want to make my day, go and give me a little vote :-) other than that I had to pull 2 Teeth this Week and it hurts like fuck...I had 2 removed because my other Teeth need more space...so right now I am off to get a Milkshake...lots of love! James