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Hii. (there are also photos of my new hair!)
So, everyone seems to be doing Finch's photo project idea, and it's fantastic, and distracting, so I want to try it.
"Comment on this entry and tell me to take a picture of something in my life... My room, my desk, anything. Be creative.
And after I get a bunch of different requests, I'll post an entry with all of the pictures. So ALL of you, comment!"
I'm not sure how long I'll give you guys, I want a good chunk of requests but not a billion. So I guess whenever I feel like I've hit the right number?
Here's some other stuff in case you don't have ideas and you came here anyway:
I tried to dye my hair purple last night, because it's my favorite color and douchebag ex's least favorite, and I've been talking about it for a while, and it's symbolic of a new beginning, and I'm hoping to trick myself when I look in the mirror into thinking more time has passed than it has, solely because I look different. I'm probably retarded, but whatever helps, right? It's worth trying. I know it won't keep me from crying, but whatever.
Hi:
I guess one problem is that my side is still shaved, so the time fast forward kind of fails, but I hardly see the side of my head.
Everyone says I have the frowniest frown. I'm not even frowning as much as I can. I actually make this face on purpose, okay? My frown reminds me of Justin because this one time he was like "your frown is so cute" and he was like "frown!" and then I frowned because I was showing my sadness that he was trying to make me make a face and I didn't want to or couldn't, and it just so happened to be the face he wanted. I shouldn't forget all the good times, because it makes me feel less stupid. I had great intentions and the whole thing wasn't fake, at one point he cared and then when it started fading he was too lazy and douchey to talk to me about it, or put any work in. I think it'd be worse to cast aside all the good times too, because I don't want to be bitter and not believe in love or whatever, I want to remember that I can feel fantastic and I wasn't a complete fool, at one point he was good to me, and then he just faked it well.
"I had tender feelings that you made hard, but it's your heart not mine that's scarred."
It was nice to get out of the house yesterday and not cry. Today is maybe a huge test, I have two classes to go to, and not cry during them. This is hard because after spanish I always texted him to tell him how fantastic I am at spanish, or to complain about my teacher. And after that is a library science class, and unfortunately my fuckin' major reminds me of him, because one of the first things we talked about before we said we liked each other was the library program at my school, and how he wanted to get into it and be a librarian. We had cute talks about how we'd work at the same university library and compete for who gets to be director of special collections. Instead he said his parents would be pissed if he went back to school for something else because he's 32 and all of his loans aren't even paid off yet. (Hi, way to live your life the way everyone else says. So what if you're 32, you don't have to get back into a dying relationship because you should start settling down. You're such a communist, taking your H&R block tax classes so you can get a more high paying job than working at a used bookstore because your parents and ex/now girlfriend don't think you make enough. real cool.)
Anyway, everything reminds me of him, and it's lame. When I forget to be sad or angry, I'm like, "oh, Justin should be home soon!" Carly and I made jokes about how we won't use words that sound like his name. We're saying "revenge" instead of "justice" (revenge is blind?) and "fair" instead of "just" even when it's the wrong kind of "just", like, "I'm fair going to mail this letter and then I'll be back to clean." (We realize we can say "only" in that circumstance, but "fair" sounds hilarious.)
So I saw two cute boys yesterday just walking down the street I live, this is promising. I didn't approach them, but it's nice to think other dudes are attractive.
I'm so bad at talking to new people, but Carly said we'll hang out in public more and she'll talk to dudes and then I can talk to them too. She has a boyfriend, who is awesome, so this won't backfire in some awful way. haha.
Thank you to everyone who commented my last journal, you guys are so sweet and sincerely do help make me feel better about all of this. I know it's his fault that it was fucked up, but it's still hard, and you guys make me smile :)
Anyway, what do you want me to take pictures of?
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KillMrBradley
You are cuter than ever and its nice to see boys are catching your eye after ex-doucheface. I would like to see a picture of your backyard :)
Imogen
thank you :) I can't wear any makeup because I feel like my not wanting to cry it off will make me cry it off.
KillMrBradley
Good thing you don't need it then. BAM, man I'm smooth. I hope you have a great day!
Imogen
haha, that was smooth. Thank you!
Sublive
Yooouuu look amazing! Swoon! Can i reidderate how much that dude sucks!
I want you to take a picture of you conquering the world!
Imogen
aww, thank you! he totally sucks.
hmm.. I will take that photo, some how.
Delilah
ugh, your ex sounds like a super douche, fuck him and his family and his ex/gf.
I want to see:
-all your pets
- your music
-the place in your house where you get most of your thinking done
-the place in your house where you feel most relaxed
- your room of course!
-where you eat delicious food
-a place with a lot of good childhood memories
-a place where you got away with something bad
I like this project, im gunna have to do it!! :D
Micah
I like your hair, the red suits you very well.
Can you take pictures of you in different outfits? I really adore your style and want to see more.
I'm very bad at talking to new people also, socially awkward is the word that comes to mind.
Imogen
ohhh! I can totally do this.
I am definitely in that socially awkward category.
Anya
i am dealing with the shaved side issue too! no messy buns on top of my head :(
Imogen
I had this problem last year when I shaved both sides and sort of a mohawk, at least this time it's only one side, but it sucksss. haha. I'm glad I'm not alone!
Anya
and before everyone tells you "don't do it, it will be a pain to grow out!" and you just think "ahhhh fuck it!" and do it anyway and then it turns out to be a real pain to grow out indeed!
Adora
you're so pretty!!!
Imogen
eeeep! Thank you! So are you :)
Adora
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AstorNYC
Hang in there, Imogen. You'll find someone worthy of you soon enough.
Please take a picture of yourself at work surrounded by books. Books are quite comforting.
Thanks for the post. You look great.
wychlea
Wow, you're such a beautiful woman, Imogen.
I want you to take pictures of things that make you feel good. Things that have always made you feel hopeful about life in general. Things that excite you creatively. Go! :)
OXOX
Finch
::cheers::
Take a picture of something you pass every day on your way to school.
thebeat
hang in there, girl. it sucks now but time will make things easier. as ridiculous and clichéd as it sounds, it's the truth. your hair looks fantastic, by the way!
Take a photo of your favourite place in your city
ChrisMurder
you look sad in those pictures :/
pictures? I am not sure, since most of your pictures turn out awesome....and the fact its almost midnight here, am a bit tired. I'll have an idea tomorrow for sure...and hope you feel better!!!
finlay
The colour really suits you : ) A picture of you dressed for winter, enjoying the change in the season.
Speaker
your favorite gage on your favorite movie. :)
Addison
If only this entry was after the artic north you reside in had thawed out because then I could say take a picture of me..in your house. BUT I fear you will probably want to post pictures before that. Did you per chance steal the unicorn rocking horse?
Bobby-Jo
You really are just way too cute.
lingerei
take a picture of you pouncing on the next two cute boys you see.. even more promising! ;)
VegaXtant
Everything you are saying reminds me of how I felt/was thinking, as I said before. And again, I'm not trying to take away from anything you are saying or feeling, just that it's going to be better. I still get reminded of my ex, and I still don't feel 100% comfortable listening to some of my favorite bands knowing he liked them, but it doesn't hurt. And eventually, being reminded really won't be bad, it'll just make you feel like you have even more memories when you think about your life. And I find that having as many impacting memories as possible, good or bad, is a pretty amazing thing. Knowing I was, in fact, lucky enough to have such impacting moments.
This may not be exactly how the game should be played, but:
Take a picture of yourself reading one of your favorite lines of a book. (haha, I'll think of a better one. I just noticed my friend makes intense expressions when he reads things he likes, so maybe you do, too?)
Therese
Everytime something happens that is out of my control or i just want change, i've found that i always chop my hair off and/or dye it. it's the easiest thing to access, i guess. and it feels nice with a little bit of change :]
After getting out of a relationship, especially a bit of a lengthy one its always so weird and kind of awkward talking to new dudes again. and i noticed the first or so crush after a breakup is super exciting, almost like you're a kid again hahah
hope you feel better !
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gorgeous.
take pictures of the one place in your place that makes you feel the safest,then the most afraid