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hi guys!
ok, so it's been a while...a LONG fucking while. let me tell you a little story that will probably interest very few of you
*ahem*
i had to step away from godsgirls (just looking at the site) for a little bit. my birthday this year ended up being a quasi disaster again. my "father" (whom i prefer to have no contact with ever - and i haven't for the last 5 years) decided to be a creep and lurk my myspace page using my cousins as a way to spy on me. pretty genius. anywho, he discovered godsgirls and proceeded to go on a "holier than thou" rampage and basically humiliate me by slandering my life to all my family members. i am not ashamed of the work i've done on godsgirls. i'm not everyone's favorite but i don't really give a shit. i love the site, i love the girls on the site (although i have yet to meet many of you!) and i love godsgirls. period. i just had to step away because i was disappointed that what i do on this site would lead someone to believe that i'm a low life who poses nude for drug money. i was laughed at when i defended myself and called this art. because you know what? the photography, the sets, the hair, the makeup - nothing is half assed or mediocre. everything is beautiful and what the fuck? who doesn't appreciate a beautiful photograph of beautiful women? when annaliese said i could participate in godsgirls i was stoked. everyone would love an extra dollar in their pockets, but i appreciate an awesome photo so much more. i've had the privilege to work with some of the most amazing, sweetest people and i will never regret my decision. i want to continue working with godsgirls. i want to send a big "fuck-off" to whoever thinks that i'm worthless. stop trying to be a parent when the chance is already long fucking gone. i work my ass off at my job, i'm putting myself through school, i'm starting my own business (eeek!), i get around all of fucking l.a. without a vehicle - i fucking rule my own life. and it's taken me a long time to be happy about all that i've done.
ok, so the point is...i stepped away from godsgirls long enough. i'm back in the game, baybeee! i missed you all <3
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Marley
<3 im proud of you.
im so glad you're back.
Eastyn
So, so happy to have you back <3 I know I've missed seeing you around!
arcANTHO
word. fuck the haters. glad to have you back.
Aria
aw yay!
Mary
that sucks.
i'm really glad you're back.
you've always been one of my faves and it made me sad you weren't active on the site too often.
i mean that in a nice way.
<33
RavenVoice
Don't listen to him hun, you gotta stay true to yourself & do what is right for you. There will always be people there to judge in life, but hey, that's only because you're highlighting their own insecurities. Families are THE worst for this, trust me.
Oh, & good luck with the business. I'm also trying to get my own business off of the ground at the moment, it's very daunting (especially when you're trying to do it grass-roots without any money!). But yeh, All the best with it. Stay strong. :-)
fatboy
haters want to clap your chrome, it ain't easy. ut it is your life and you may not get a second shot. stay up player.
wychlea
Everything you said here is exactly what you should be saying/feeling. Go for you, Helena! You are your own person and what matters most is what YOU want and how YOU feel!
Cheers to you!
~Neil OXOX
Helena
awww...you all rule my little heart!!
xoxox
heather
I miss you baby!
Cyn
Your far from worthless there is nothing wrong with what you are doing & if anybody thinks that they need to wip there eyes clean & no matter what you do your family shouldnt judge you they should love you for who you are not what you do & stand by you...there your family that is what your family is supose to do!
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Fantastic!!!! :love: