Helena

no, really. what is everyone doing?

friends! hi guys! ok, so it's been a while...a LONG fucking while. let me tell you a little story that will probably interest very few of you *ahem* i had to step away from godsgirls (just looking at the site) for a little bit. my birthday this year ended up being a quasi disaster again. my "father" (whom i prefer to have no contact with ever - and i haven't for the last 5 years) decided to be a creep and lurk my myspace page using my cousins as a way to spy on me. pretty genius. anywho, he discovered godsgirls and proceeded to go on a "holier than thou" rampage and basically humiliate me by slandering my life to all my family members. i am not ashamed of the work i've done on godsgirls. i'm not everyone's favorite but i don't really give a shit. i love the site, i love the girls on the site (although i have yet to meet many of you!) and i love godsgirls. period. i just had to step away because i was disappointed that what i do on this site would lead someone to believe that i'm a low life who poses nude for drug money. i was laughed at when i defended myself and called this art. because you know what? the photography, the sets, the hair, the makeup - nothing is half assed or mediocre. everything is beautiful and what the fuck? who doesn't appreciate a beautiful photograph of beautiful women? when annaliese said i could participate in godsgirls i was stoked. everyone would love an extra dollar in their pockets, but i appreciate an awesome photo so much more. i've had the privilege to work with some of the most amazing, sweetest people and i will never regret my decision. i want to continue working with godsgirls. i want to send a big "fuck-off" to whoever thinks that i'm worthless. stop trying to be a parent when the chance is already long fucking gone. i work my ass off at my job, i'm putting myself through school, i'm starting my own business (eeek!), i get around all of fucking l.a. without a vehicle - i fucking rule my own life. and it's taken me a long time to be happy about all that i've done. ok, so the point is...i stepped away from godsgirls long enough. i'm back in the game, baybeee! i missed you all <3