Felicia

So it would seem that i am being really slack at updating myself on here. I guess this is mostly due to the insane past couple of weeks... It has its good and bad points.

I'll start with the bad...

I broke off my nearly 6 year relationship last weekend. Fucking breaks my heart to do it but i believe that it had run its course. I wasnt happy with the way things were going and i hadn't been for quite some time. I tried so hard to keep it going, i put so much effort in but i guess after nearly a year i couldnt keep lying to myself and pretending that nothing had changed when it had.
I guess i made the right choice but i still cant stop feeling so awful about it. I want him to be happy but then i also want to be happy too. It doesnt help that he knows im seeing someone else too. A lot of people have a very low opinion of me right now, judging me and saying that i rushed into it way too fast but i've known the guy for a while now and we have spent quite a bit of time hanging out recently and if im going to be perfectly honest, i have liked him for a long time and yes i do feel bad about that, but i never did anything wrong, in fact i did the right thing, i finished the relationship before i started anything else (and its not like we're right in anyones face about it too, we have actually been careful not to offend anyone).
I just wish everyone could just respect my desitions and not place judgement on me for something they know nothing about.

I hate drama.


However, i do have some good news. One of the photos that was taken at the Bizarre Ball was printed in the magazine!!! I have wanted to be in Bizarre magazine for years so that was a massive deal for me!
Should be doing my fisrt set very soon too. Just the last few weeks have been quite stressfull for me and im just trying to deal with stuff first.

WOW!!! how awesome was the Bizarre Ball! I have never seen so many awesome people in one place in all my life :D
I settled on a voodoo/headhunter type theme and im glad i did too :) I have some pics that my mates took so have a look:









Such a good night, now i have to wait until next year before its on again! :(

Hopefully the photographer from the Bizarre Magazine will put the pic he took of me in the next issue, my parents will be so proud! lol