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Jeez, if you have never had oral lesions then you have no idea the pain Im in!! OOOOWWW!!! I went to the dr yesterday and got an oral steroid and some paste. I am not really feeling any better, but hopefully I will soon. The lesions go all the way down my throat. All I ate yesteday was some turnip greens. I would put them at the back of my tongue and tilt my head back and try to swallow. I was eating saying "I need a fucking punching bag, this fucking hurts!" I got my Klonopen refilled so hopefully that will cut down on my stress and anxiety. I also got Paxil, but idk how well its going to work bc I used to take Seroquel but its too damn expensive.
I haven't been online lately because I thought living with my mom was going to be a lot different. She doesn't really let me use the computer, and I am thinking about moving in with my dad because I can bring my computer over there and they have a wireless internet connection. Plus hes not a freakin wacko. He got hit in the head w/ a piece of phone equipment at work, so hes a little confused. Its still better than living here! Whats strange is growing up my dad and I never got along. I don't know if it was me because hes my step dad, or if it was just him bc his personality is really sarcastic and mean. Its hard to get him, but now that Ive matured I can kinda understand why he acts that way, and I see that I do act a lot like him. lol I don't know what to do, I don't want to upset my mom, but I gotta do something!!
I had a photoshoot yesterday w/ one of the GG members! WOOT! It was so much fun, and it was kewl meeting someone from the site. I did 2 shoots and some portfolio stuff. Can't show ya anything bc its a surprise! I almost canceled bc of my lesions, but then I was like wait, I don't need to talk and Ill just work through the pain! Im glad I didn't cancel, I would have really missed out on a good time!
So my friend is here to save me with a blunt, I will definately write more as soon as possible! I miss all of you dearly, and I see some great sets have went up in my absence.
xoxo
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richpdx
Aww I hope you feel better. The blunt sounds like it will help lol.
When I first saw your journal in the list I thought it said "Oral Lessons." That sounded like a lot more fun, lol.
It's nice to hear from you, pretty girl :)
Bobby-Jo
i miss u. id take care of you if i was there! cold smoothies are the best for fucked up mouth sores!
Elliott
A smoothie would be nice, something thats not too acidic so it doesn't burn. Its all from stress. I got in a huge fight on Sunday, and woo, lucky me I get ulcers that same day. You can be my online nurse, lol everythings via internet these days. :D
Bobby-Jo
i would love to be your internet nurse!
now show me where it hurts hehe.
ive had olcers as bad as your before all over my tonuge. i thought i had herpes or something but it was just a really bad case of them fromo stress. let me guess you thought u were pregnant?
<3
Elliott
Well, I would hope Im not pregnant. I've got Implanon, and its supposed to last 3 years. lol
I actually didnt' have the ulcers while I was pregnant, lucky me bc I had everything else imaginable go wrong.
Ive had them all my life, they just come and go. If I get one, I get a TON all over and it just gets worse.
They are MUCH better now though. That paste really helped.
I dont' see why I've never been given the same treatment before when I had them.
I did think the same thing you were thinkin though, I was like man is this the herp or something?
Then I thought, well I must have been born w/ herpes because Ive had them since I can remember.
Stress sucks, I hate how it doesn't effect the ppl you want it to. haha
xoxo
Bobby-Jo
awe i didnt know you were a mommy! boy or girl? damn theres so many hot mamas on here i freakin love it!
Elliott
Yup, Ive got a c section scar.
I have a boy named Bear :D
His bday is Sunday, he'll be 1!
Bobby-Jo
OMG! his name is Bear? thats those fucking cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy bday little one! hehe
Elliott
Thanks! I expect there to be a lot of people naming their kid that now! haha
I didn't get the name from that guy Bear Grillz.
Actually, sadly, I was working at McDonalds and they were selling "Build a Bears"
I was like, "Bear, who couldn't love a kid named Bear" so far hes lived up to the name.
Hes HUGE and hes tough as hell. Hes stronger than me. hahaha
His middle name is Kai. I got that from my longest gf who lives in WA.
His name means "Bear of the water" which to me is a polar bear,
and ironically his dad drew a polar bear before he died,
which is hanging in our living room. We didn't realize it til he was like 2 mos. old.
Bobby-Jo
wait... your sons daddy died?....
Elliott
no I meant my sons grandfather. I was talking like I assumed you knew I was referring to Jr's (my husbands) dad. duh me lol
Bobby-Jo
omg okay good i was about to be like forreal sad. that would be too tragic. so yeah. lol i finally sent a set it! hopefully ill get a reply back from julene soon to let me know she got it then i have high hopes itll go up soon after that. whoo whoo. <3
desolace
Take a good multivitamin. It will seriously reduce the amount and frequency.
Elliott
I have heard that, also I have heard not having very much body fat can make things irregular.
BrokenPath
I totally read ORAL LESSONS :D
Elliott
Omg, I wish! That was actually kind of a joke at the shoot. My friends brother threw me a pillow and was like "here, for your knees" I said "Oh its ok, Im used to being on my knees" lol Oral lessons=way better than the pain of lame lesions.
sardaukar1977
EWW that sucks!! I hope you feel better soon!
Elliott
Thanks, and it is ew! lol
Violeta
um i just had a root canal and yea any oral problems suck.
yea im from houston btw texas texas!
Elliott
You should take a bus to where I live so we can meet up! :D
I can take a set for you!
xoxo
Violeta
yea! where do u live!
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awww, i hope you heal up soon! that sounds so painful! =(
& you will have to show us the pics from your shoot once you have them!