Ellie's journals

enter my territory, and you will not live to see your tiny disgusting grandchildren.

in the warm sunshine,
don't wanna see the day when its dyin'

spontaneous swimming for me = sunburn from HELL

i will no go lay naked on the kitchen floor with aloe vera all over my shoulders and neck.

take me to the place where beautiful things happen and it's absolutely taken for granted every time.

ahahaha

alright.

my b/f was getting some...milk..maybe soda i dont know.

it was really late at a gas station and he was wearing the suicide is a mortal sin shirt.

some lady comes up to him, saying how she was just tickled to see some decent christian morals in the youth.....she said too many folks these day believe that jesus will forgive you of your suicide sin.....the "liberal chirstians" (tehehehehe) so she was just y'know, tipping her hat to him.

sigh.....i look forward to the day when i wear my GG t shirt in to town and get questioned if godsgirls is a women's bible study group.

my doggie's better. he went from awful to great, and is back to his usual destructive self.

i was never so happy to coem home to a demolished teddy bear :D

in other news, i am a liar and am not growing out my hair. i can't do it. :/

in other otherrr news, i have chocolate cake.

when the ones you love are healthy and you've got chocolate cake, you really don't have much to whine about

<3

My dog is sick...i love my dog so much and hurt when he does. He possibly has an auto immune disease and if thats the case hes going to have to get a lot of steroid shots and things....

that is extremely stressful to me, that he is sick..

 

and on the other hand, i've come to a comfortable realization....i feel like most people don't take me for who i really am. i don't havea  lot of folks on my side at this point....but i know whats inside of me and it isn't all that bad, really....no worse than the girl who gets it right everytime anyway.

and so i don't care anymore how most people see me....i'd never consider myself better than anyone...i just don't mind being seen as something i may not be. i guess if that's what i am in their head, then thats their own reality there's not much i can do....i'll just set some time aside for those who want to look a bit more.

i'll still exist the same as always.

 

the combination of stress and this feeling is way too weird for me.

have the sets this week been craaazzzy good?

goodness...

gonna have a quiet night at my mom's...she's making me BEANS. i love beans. people talk shit about them but they're so yummy and i get my protein there as well.

oh, and i suppose i'm on the hunt for a new camera....i guess mine was stolen or something, i've no clue. i had it with me at all times so thats my theory anyway.

if anyone has one they wanna sell or something, i'm in need here.

i've begun a quest to grow out my hair and there is no turning back.

it seems like i could have way more fun with my DIYs with looonggg white hair

:D

there is nothing worse for my eyes and ears than the late nite videos on vh1....

i felt like i was watching a string of old navy and deodorant commercials set to shitty music.