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Ellie
i lost someone. 07/03/08 12:00 pm pst
Listening to:

that i loved.


maybe i'm fucked up, but i'm not a bad person...


i can be cold and distant and mean, but it doesn't mean a thing.


its hard for me not to hold someone down so that theycan't climb on top of me, so that i'll never be the one in position to get hurt.....but its cost me this time.


its never an excuse. its hard to change, is all.


 


 

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Bobby_Banger 07/03/08 12:26 pm pst

That's.........sad. :(

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wychlea 07/03/08 01:01 pm pst

Hugs.

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Ellie 07/03/08 01:28 pm pst

thankyou

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llamuh 07/03/08 01:28 pm pst

Cheer up Buttercup I know you're a good person and you have a good heart.  It's very hard to change.  I tell myself I need to very often and never follow through.  But I have grown and learned a lot from past experiences and it will make you even better than you were before.

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Ellie 07/03/08 01:33 pm pst

<3 yeah.... i know that i'll continue to learn....my biggest fear is becoming a bitter person....even though there are always little things that will make me smile even when i don't feel like smiling.


As far as everything ele goes, i'm trying to keep my chin up and let it go peacefully.

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Darth_Pinko 07/03/08 01:36 pm pst

I feel your pain, Ive been thru the same situation a while back, and moving on is the best way... it's never easy.

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Kelsey 07/03/08 01:53 pm pst

whoa. you took the words right out of my mouth. i have been having the same issues.

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Amanda-Marie 07/03/08 03:28 pm pst

Oh I hear ya there darlin....


I do the exact same shit... freak right the fuck out when shit starts to get on the path to semi-normalism, like I better do something now before something goes wrong, because its bound to, and I'll be damned if I get hurt...


Sigh.... I hope it works out for you love, and for me too


<3

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