When i was a kid, i had trouble learning how to tie my shoes. Everyday during gym, I'd anticipate the end of class when we had to put our shoes back on, because i was nervous that i coudln't do it in front of all the other kids.

I'ts a shame I didn't just owna  bunch of flats.

I still get nervous about little things. My heart is always pounding before I go into crowded public places.

Anyway, this week has been weird. I had an ex friend want to kick my ass (if you knew me better, you'd realize how funny this is, I'm pretty non-violent...), and last night I drank a bunch of apple rum and layed on the living room floow for a while listening to music by myself. I keep having dreams that wake me up but then i can't remember what they were about, i just feel like "whhhaaat..." and it's really hard to get back to sleep.

Maybe that's what i need...really good sleep.