Dasha

ssooo good news... gettin pictures done TOMRO!!!

finaly.. i have soem time off work and i found someone to take my pictures.. and i even made him sign up and become a member!! oh yesss!! soo soon everyone very soon!!! i will have some siiqq pictures!

so here gose a second attempt at writing...whatever this is...basically explaining my views on why life is so fucked up.
the reason why im writing this.. well its 1:30 in the morning, i have worked my ass off at work all day, my roomates asleep and im bored...so i decided to go through some old pictures put them up and write a little somthin somthin..meaning that none of this will make any sence whatesoever..so my thoughts for this evening ...

i feel like i have never felt so bored and unempressed with my life before.the past 2 years have been filled with some of the best and worst times of my life.i have met thee most amazingest ppl ever. but now im sitting here wonderin what the fuck happend to all of them. has life changed them that much. or is it just age.  for the past couple years i have gone from beeing homless, to havein my own place, to being back to homless and so on. once i got on my feet i had these big plans to move to the city, get a sweet job, go to school, and maybe meet a "man" who could make this trip just that much better.so now im here wonderin why this totally wasnt what i was excpecting.. one minute i feel like im on top then before you know it everything comes crashing down all at once. and im just standing here wonderin how this happen and how the hell im goina get back again on top again.

but what i have realized is that all my planning and thinkin i was being responsible and grown up, i was just doin things that made other ppl happy.. like fuck i hate school.. school is defainlty not for me. i dont want to base my life on what society thinks is success. fuck. i want to wake up to ppl i love, a beer and maybe a j here and there. thats what makes me happy.. to kno that someone truely loves u. thats happyness. well aleast to me.i would have never gotten this far with out my friends. they are why i get up in the morning. but what happens when they all turn in to asswholes.. or things jsut start to go stale. what then.

and thats where im left at... wonderin what is the best thing to do...i came to this town to change.. change for the better...but im not sure if im doin it right... i kno its goin be rough in the begning.. but come on...

one thing is for sure im not goina fuckin give up.. thats not the kind of women my mother raised me to be. i dont let ppl get the best of me and this town wont either...its funny cause i kinda miss beeing homless..it was more like beeing a drifter.. not knowing where ur goina be the next day.. i mean it did have its ups and downs...i never had money.. but i never starved, and i never begged for money. we will see....maybe im just beeing blind to things. i think i kno what makes me happy. nwyas bla bla

haha if u have made it this far..wow thank u.. haha there is alot of mubo jumbo...

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