HELP ME

Omg dudes I don't even know what to do. Completely bonkers.

Ok so I'm a chicken basically. Ok so I've had truly hearty deep down feelings for 2 guys my whole life. One is a drug addict so I won't even entertain that. But I will always love him. The other is Mr. Kelly Primeaux( pronounced 'Primo'), such a cool name lol.

Ok so, Kelly is in Washigton but is coming back for a bit. And we've been talking on the phone everday. So we talked about past things and how much fun we had just hanging out with each other and nobody else.

Then he said " there was a time when I felt like you were mad at me...why were you mad " lololz I tried to avoid it...( um I had deep feeling for you and you show up with a random ass chick lol) but of course I didn't say that, I say " uuuummm haha I dunno...haha like ha I ummm I li--- ummm " and he's like " just say it...please just say it, tell me just say it. I wanna hear you say it . The feelings are returned, they always have been. Just say it"

And of course.....I didn't I chicken out and say " I liked you "....knowing fully that I fucking love this kid. I am in love with Kelly and have been for a while.

I am positive he knows this and just wants me to say something. But no, I don't cuz I am fucking giant pussy.

My question ; How fucking lame is my life ? Why can't I tell the kid how I feel fully ?

Balderdash

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