the nilla wafers are in front of me. they want me to eat them...
what to do, what to do.
today has been so odd. actually, this whole weekend has been strange as well. it was the first weekend in months where i did absolutely nothing. didn't hang out with my friends, didn't party, didn't read-- i didn't even watch television. i feel so sloth. everyday i feel like i'm drifting further and further from my life. i'm just here. it's not as though i'm in a bad mood or anything either. i guess i could say i'm content, but that wouldn't be right. it's beginning to seem like i don't serve any purpose aside from being a student. when i'm not in class or doing something for class, i don't realize what else i'm doing. everything feels like a blur.
everyone i know here at my school has something else going for them whether it's a campus organization (i'm involved with one too but i'm not ready to hand over my soul), girlfriends, or weed/skating. all the people that matter to me are back home, more than 6 hours away. i talk to them at least once a day, but it's not the same when you can't see a person's face or be able to give them hugs. being away for months at a time while the same things continue the way they always have at home except without you there feels terrible. all i can do is hear stories and it doesn't do much but make me miss home even more.
i feel like everything i just wrote is a mess. fuck.
i need to get my mind straight. ADD pills and all, possibly. haha
damn.
nilla wafers, i'm coming for you.
fuck.
* i already brushed my teeth. -_-
this is probably my all-time favorite, most-watched youtube video.
sadly, i think it's because it reflects my personality. lol



i think i'm done, finally.
hahah it looks like there's no difference from my last post
but i chopped off so much more hair. lol
omgggg this is why people shouldn't leave me alone
the heat, though i love it very much, makes me crazy and impulsive.
look what i did to my hair :/ agh.



i'm all itchy now haha
this stuff is surprisingly good.

great. knowing me, i'll be eating this all the time now