so at the beginning of this week i was looking forward to my bday party.  matt had called all the friends and organised everything for my pool party and bbq and everyone was confirmed...

then yesterdy and todat everyone fucking bailed...like apart from 3 people. saying i got a promotion at work, i have to work tomorrow, i have a funeral to go to. i have a show my bands playing. etc etc... its such bullshit. i should have known thi would happen. anything i plan usually goes to shit.

i do this thing called murder girls... i helped run it in the UK while i was there and they guy who owns it wanted me to do the USA murder girls...but ive decided to make it kinda my friends only, cos theres no money involved its basicaly a lot of fun and i thought i have a lot of sexy girlfriends who would liek to do some fun shoots to start their modelling portfolios and all the girls would be at my bday party so i booked 2 photographers to come along. one to the pool party and one to the camping trip in the evening... and tomorrow i have to call the one coming on the evening and try to reschedule.....luckily the one coming to the pool party is my best friend and i know there will be a few girls there so we can at least get a few shots with the girls that are there.
i hate cancelling photoshoots its so unprofessional and its hard to get the trust of that photographer to book with you again.

ima try enjoy my day as best i can tomorrow but its gonna be hard knowing that im 26 and ive never had a good birthday. next year im gonna come to LA and celebrate with people who will be up for a party and having fun.

so recently ive been taking pictures of the dead things ive found around the house....if any of you dont know basically i live next to a lake and theres lots of wildlife... lots of rattlesnakes, lizards, racoons, spiders etccc....so yesterday matt hit a bird flying accross the road.,, it landed in his grill and when we got home i got it out....it wasnt all mangled and it just looked asleep....i took it out the grill and i buried it out the back of his house....and today i found a teeny lizard...my chihuahua actually found it and put it in her mouth and spat it out....but it looked in perfect condition....i tried to take a photo but it was dark and my cameras flash is too bright and the camera on my sk slide is pretty gay. i'll post pics when i can.

my internet is being stolen off theneighbour currently as i live in the middle of nowhere and can only get dial up unless we pay like 500 bucks to get satellite so we are stealing off the neighbour but as they live a little down the road the signal is only low and we can only pick it up from certain parts of the house....so im balancing my laptop off the tp of the couch right now....so im not gonna post pics til tomorrow when hopefully i can pick up a better signal.

so im gonna go...

speak soon...

i need better friends.

ones that eat sushi....man everyone hates it up here.