Amythia's journals

Or perhaps not.  What creature that raises from the ashes would be beautiful?

Last night I was confronted with the fire which would burn the insides of me.  It was pretty painful and upsetting, as it licked the inner emotions of my conscious, and maybe... probably... actually, most likely, my unconcious.  But I took it like a ... not a man, a man crumples with such internal prodding.  I took it like a woman.  Like the women who takes the pain of birthing, and the pain of heart ache and letting go.

But out of that fire births a creature.  Pheonix.

I wrote a entry on my Live Journal.  I think I will leave all my truely emotional things on LJ, but there will be overlap.  I just find that my emotional and spiritual ramblings do not interest the likes of you GG folk.  No bad feeligns, but I like comments and after writing a journal that yeilds no comments after a few days of posting, I pout about it.  No big deal. 

Here is my LJ: http://amythia.livejournal.com/

Something I said to NoPotNewGuy about my experiences last night:

(13:01:31) amythiathea Still have shadows about in my mind, but I'm dealing with it al ot better
(13:02:06) amythiathea Last night was very... well there was a lot of discussion, all good, but when I talk about my emotions and relaitonships a lot I get frazzled and upset
(13:02:33) johnnytrouble87 :-(
(13:02:41) amythiathea Not a bad thing though
(13:02:55) amythiathea Last night was very good in terms of progression and communication
(13:18:35) johnnytrouble87 well as long as there was progress I guess.
(13:20:57) amythiathea Yeah, I'm polyamorus and people I love are trying to deal with it, and I'm trying to deal with them dealing with it. I wish it was more socially acceptable and tolerated, so it won't be like I'm the only one.
(13:22:49) johnnytrouble87 yeah that sounds tough.
(13:23:28) amythiathea Hehe yeah
(13:23:30) amythiathea yay challenges

Dingo is making supper for me tonight. Yum.

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So look at pictures.


Amythia, Polymorphic, and Marla


Amythia Photographed by Jeremy Adshade of pshhonline.com and hair/makeup by Visha Loo.



Livia, Marla, Eddie and Amythia, outfits and photography by Healing Heart Designs.







A pirate party.

Slow progress.


Cat I live with. He is Spunk.


Me. Right now.

Plurk.com



I kind of want to read this.  Saw it in my steam punk blog:

Space Captain Smith is a recently-published steampunk novel by a Mr Toby Frost about a Captain Isambard Smith in service of the British Space Empire! Bringing steampunk into outer space, Mr Frost throws our Captain Smith in peril and adventure as he seeks to rescue a psychic hippy maiden from a hippy world and bring her to the safety of Her Majesty’s Interstellar Imperium, which is evidently threatened by legions of bloodthirsty ant-men, religious lunatics, and other rum types!

Amidst all this insanty, Smith has only his trusted sidekicks to count upon: a rampaging alien with a literal take on life, and a renegade android with a secret past and a hitman on her tail.
















Seems like a really amusing read to me.








Last night I was on Stickam and this guy comes on.  He does'nt say hi or anything, his webcam is a view of him and a football game playing in the background.  He's somewhat on the heavy side.  He is on the heavy side.  I pay no attention to him past saying the initial hi.  Then I crack my back, doing a stretch and he asks in very large font if that was the lotus position.  No, I say, I can't do that any more, I'm sure if I stretched more then I could do it.  The guy then says "That is what's wrong with kids these days, they don't stretch enough".  Can you bend backwards and touch your toes to her head you daft man?  I don't say anything about my contortion and I make a comment about how he considered me as a kid.  I found it quite condenscending coming from him.  After I grilled him for his large font he left, then came back and tried to chat with us using his mike, again just like his font it was loud and obnoxious, thankfully we were all saying our goodnights and I signed off.

Stickam is quite filled with the lonely, bored and desperate people of the world.  So many people with distorted social roles.



I want a white cat.



A friend on facebook posted a picture of his friends whte cat with different colored eyes.  Beautiful...



This actually made me tear up... a little bit.  I would have been so happy.  It is such a sweet story, I had to share it with you guys.  Cuteoverload.com posted it recently, I've never heard of it.


I also found a picture of me at Demonika's Symphony of Horror's on one of my friend's photography website. AMphotog.com I think.  I was the curtain girl and while I wasen't watching a performance from backstage, fooling around with Dingo, giving out prixes, or pulling the curtain, i was entertaining the crowd by dancing to the music.  I remember one really drunk lady was so incredibly infatuated with me, she would not stop giving me attention, it was nearly embarrassing and some how she had a backstage pass even though I don't recognize her.  She ended up being at the after party and she didn't give me the time of the day.

Pfft, girls.

Anyways, here are random, older pictures of me to wrap up this post.











The one on the right is me.

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Hey I'll be live all night, showing off my new bangs!

here are some pictures taken in the last few days with my fiancee's new crack berry.


Dingo watches me make the straw all blurry.  He had a matcha smoothie, but this certain tea house does not make them well. It's watery, too icey and not that flavourful.  Oolong teahouse is better.


My fiancee and I go for a walk to the resevoire and we walk along the rock beach.  We watched the boat coming around a few times from Heritage park, and talked about life, excess of city life, and of our love.

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If you haven't been watching me on stickam regularily, you  won't know of this painting I'm doing for a client.  Her dog has recently passed away and she is left with her turtle. I'm painting two 2 x 4 feet canvases of her dog and her turtle.  she loved them both so much.  She slept with the collar and leash of the dog. 

Here is a progres picture, more to come soon.



I hope you all have a great weekend, and for those who are in Calgary, be safe from the fake cowboys with oil leaking from their boots and thinking they are having the time of their lives in stale beer gardens. 

Though I am in love with the real cowboys and cowgirls.

So jump into stickam, and say hi, let me know if my bangs suit me.  i've done them before, I need a fresh new look.

It was epic and fun.

Our set was last, at 1am so it wasn't completely full but there was a fair share of people watching.  When the music started we spread out a sheet and pillows on the stage between the two stripper poles and did a DIY set on stage in front of a hundred some kinky and dressed up fetish folk.


We stripped down to our undies and nipple-electric-tape-crosses.




Then we scurried to the bathroom, leaving whistles and cheers, and got completely nude...

I definitely enjoyed the set, it was fun doing the set in front of so many people.

The rest of the night was great too, but I'll post more about it when I get more pictures.  Because it didn't happen unless you guys have proof right?  So you guys can wait to hear about how I beat up Dingo on stage...  and the really cute girls singing drag king to Savage Garden in pvc and a flogger, and the belly dancer with the snake...  And the sploshing... 

So when you break some a href linking html in your journal it messes up your ability to edit that journal because the link has turned into a mishap and you have epic failed.

I'm sorry.


Driving is not as cool as I make it look.


Picture of Visha Loo doing my hair a long time ago.  This is the picture that pops up when she phones me.  it's upside down because she was washing my hair and... well that's how the photo turned out.

I made a post about Crimson yesterday but I failed.  The link did not work.  Does GodsGirls.com automatically filter facebook links?  Anyways  all of the Calgary GodsGirls will be there.  Livia, Marla, Eddie, Lacey and my self.  We're going to shoot a DIY on stage.  The nude part will be shot in a curtain... of somekind.

I feel like Crimson might fall apart at the last minute... or just come together at the last minute.  It's kind of scarey.  organizing an event is a crazy undertaking and I thank all who help me organize and help me do the running around.

I wore my leather corset posture collar last night at this erotic art show.  We got there real late, but we saw some art, and ate some food.  I got lots of compliments on my look even though it was a simple summer dress with a under bust corset and the collar.  I love my collar, and now I need a black leather underbust corset with purple piping to match it.  And I think I will go to North Bound Leather to get it made.  It'll be a bouple hundred bucks, but it will be well worth the money, and something I can save up for. 

Talking about saving up for, I have no money.  Hopefully money shall come to me after doing Crimson, and after the comossion I'll get 500, and also I've applide for a busser at Snatch, which is a few blocks away from my house, and I'll post up some babysitting flyers in my community.

I've also made an account on ChipIn.com.  It's a web app that exists in a widget and also updateable web page and you can chip in to people's causes and it will keep a track of it.  I have no specific goal, but just for numbers sake I input the goal od $8000.00, which is one year tuition and posted about my situation with school.  my parents spend so much money to put me through school and I feel like I haven't really done much to help, other then get through school.  Maybe it's enough for them, but I feel like a leech.  I should have gotten/kept a job through the summer it would have made life a shit load more easier.

When I went to Toronto, Dingo finally made his first journal post this morning. Go congratulate him. He even mentioned me. Though he needs to smarten up and post a profile picture soon. Every one needs to see his beautiful blonde hair.

Crackam is sucking the life out of me.  Though I don't go live any more, when I do it's friends only.  It gets out of hand when people expect to see boobs.  I've come to realize, quickly, that Stickam is full of very, very bored and lonely, lonely people.  And most of them are desperate.  I've been getting less patient with people who have nothing good to say though, and my ban list get longer and longer.  If you are member and want to join me in live, just add me as a friend, I auto add requests.

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I tried this baby the moment I got to my fiance's bed.  Dr. Z Passion Enhancer came with batteries already.  It is created by Dr. Victoria Zdrok, J.D., Ph.D., Penthouse Columnist, Penthouse Pet of the Year, and Playboy Playmate.  A psychologist and sexologist.   It fit easily on to his penis.  The silicone was very stretchy and soft, very comfortable for the both of us.  It didn't restrict blood flow alot for him.  The bullets vibrate pretty intensely and they are easy to turn on and off, even in the middle of action, to turn it on at the last minute.  This vibrating cock ring makes grinding a whole lot more fun.

I also like how it's shaped.  most cock rings with double bullet vibraters that are this size look like dolphins or rabbits.  And those are too cheesy and silly to me.  This one is more stream line, and reminds me of a snake.  But it only alludes to a snake shape, when it's actually a pretty abstract shape covered in heart shapes.  And even the hearts don't bother me.  Well they actually feel real good.

NoPotNewGuy is getting one.  You should too.  and it's PINK!



And speaking of pink, I found this PURPLE vibrating rubber duckie.  I Rub My Duckie is a line of rubber duckies made by Big Tease Toys.  It's complete with a Swarovski crystal on it's beak and a removeable boa around it's neck.

It's completely water proof so you can have fun in the bath.  I did try it last night in the bath, but it masterbating in water was not ideal.  However, this little duckie can get interesting, position wise and also it has two spots for pressure.  The beak and the tail.  The beak is very, very interesting...

And who would have known that the head and the tail are perfect position for vaginal and anal stimulation.

And this duckie vibrates pretty intensely.  Definetly a useful and fun toy to own.  It looks great and non threatening, but it is a very creative toy to play with.

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So not talking about sex for a bit here.  On Saturday I went for a ride with my fiance, Dingo, and Dingo's friend J.W.  It was great cause it was so nice out.  I was on my bike and the boys where on their boards.  Here's a pic of Dingo and J.W. in the distance.


And yes, J.W. is wearing a kilt.  I got to see his bare bum.

Later that day I head over to another friend's house for a BBQ.  I played Rock band and I am the best at the drums...

I know people check out my journal here on GG and are not GG members.  Kind of interesting.  I know one of them.

I got my nipple play pierced again.  Dingo and Visha some how convinced me to do three needles.  At first I wanted to do one, in my right nipple (did the left one in a previous journal), but they wanted me to do three down my breast from my collarbone and a fourth one in my nipple.  I coaxed them into doing only two down my breast from my collarbone and one in my nipple.

The first one was by the collarbone and that was not fun at all.  It took me a while to get up the nerve to continue on the other ones.  He went right to the nipple which wasn't bad at all, and the one in between wasn't a big deal either.  Dingo says I stayed pretty still from my first time.  Especially my nipple. 

Look ma, I'm getting better at taking pain.

The inside of my shirt feels like it's constantly squeezing my nipple.  Makes for interesting sensations when having conversations with family.

I was supposed to do candle waxing but I backed out from needed to rest fromt he nipple piercing.  I'm glad I didn't let them talk me into doing it, I was very tired by then. 

So we pierced down Visha's leg and then candle waxed the bleeding legs (needles out).  It looked great despite the fact that her leg looked like she was developing some skin disease that bloomed at an alarming rate.  We used a red candle and was getting some black parts from the carbon and it looked very much like a nasty wound from a zombie.  Oh and she doesn't have any feelers, so it didn`t really phase her.  Until Dingo snubbed the candle on a waxed part of her leg.  Though really it looked more like she was being tickled... it looked like a shit eating grin, then a grimace of pain.

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Catching up on my Google reader before I go sleep and dream of things I will most likely not remember.


Image from baby art blog.  I enjoy how Trevor Brown sketches, drawing out his eyes and the lips.  I think it's more real to me, then reality.  The face has feeling.  It's so real to me...


I want cute kitty for breaky.


Mmmm yes this one will do just fine.


I like flowers in my hair.


Eric Lafforque: one of my favorite Flickr feeds.  He photographs all over the world and makes books.  He catpures the best of every culture and ethniticity.  Seeings his images shows me how much I am missing out on here in America.  America is so dry and stale compared to these other places.  Places where true culture comes from, and not created from a mixing pot and colonial bickering.

Here is a blurb he posted with this specific image:

The theyyam dancers make up in a little room, and try to hide themselves to the audience, so it's not easy to shoot. And once they are ready,in transe, they are supposed to be Gods on earth, so Gods do not pause for french photographer and they go dancing in front of the Temple... A great subject for pix, but hard to catch !India