Nipple piercing 06/21/08 08:27 am pst
Listening to: birds outside my window
No, I didn't get a nipple piercing, but I got it pierced. Holy fuck it was one heck of a ride. Last night I had a little bit of a play time with a top and we played with candling, clothespins and play piercing. We actually originally set out to practice for the fetish set we're doing for CRIMSON, but that didn't happen did it. He topped me the whole time. Not that I really minded or anything. We sat on his bed naked and talked for a long time too.
He ended up putting three needles in me. Two at the front of my hips, between my belly and pelvic area. And one in my left nipple. My nipple bled the most, it always hurt the most and was possibly the most intense love-it-hate-it pains ever. I want to be able to take pain more calmly. I told some one this, that I was sort of training myself this way and they said it was very warrior like of me. Hey Swindle, how's Woman Warrior going?
I wonder if there is a specific reason why I'm putting myself through more torturous and painful activity? Am I getting bored with typical sensation, or am I really wanting to train myself in dealing with pain better? Do I really enjoy it, or is it something to distract me, or a new high? Am I delighting my self with bodily pain, or am I just putting up with it in an attempt to enjoy pain?
I get to see the therapist next week, I should bring this up.
Here is a collection of photos from Toronto and NIX that I took and also that I've take from other people.
Things aren't going so well for me at the point in my life. I'm bummed out by quite a few things. *sigh* And the summer weather just started, and I'm not quite happy enough to really enjoy it.
The sun outside my window:
Me being bummed out on this beautiful day:
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