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been gone for a while................ posted : 05/16/07 at 12:49am pst

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i wrote this long ass rant a few months back and i just kept erasing it cause i was just so mad i couldnt write about shit without wanting to out everyone one of those assholes thats should get stuck by lightning. So here is the short verson.

Ive been gone for a while from LA and my friends. I miss you! anyways............ i learned a lot in the past year since i moved. Like how to pole dance...he he. but most of all i learned who my true friends are. And all the little lies and backstabbing all came to the surface:) I must say if they act a little bit off when you first meet them....RUN! Cause they will suck you into their madness....especially if you are a good person who tries to help people. like i used to. im more careful now though. i pick very carefully who i help anymore. Last time i put myself out to help someone i got severely fucked over. In any way a person can get fucked over and i mean any way...... but hey i must thank them for fucking me over:) i am better off now and now i dont have to lug all that shit to vegas. since it got trashed........ thanks!

Some people are never what they seem. Like you look up to these artists/models/photographers/ whatever and they have this "im so cool" thing about them. You tend to believe that they are "oh so cool." You want to meet them. DONT!! You will only be disappointed.

heres a photo bitches!

i know you like my dress:) shot it twice. but it was worth the wait:)

see you guys in vegas!
xoxo

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poolshark

05/16/07 10:17am pst

Wow. I does seem like you have been through a lot in the past year. I went through something similar and also learned a lot from it. Is the move to Vegas a permanent one?

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Adrianne

05/21/07 08:26pm pst

i dont know yet. it al depends on if i like it enough:)

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Aria

05/16/07 11:03am pst

You look sexy in that dress. xo

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Charity

05/19/07 10:25pm pst

I loves your hair!
And your tiny little body!
xxx

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MojoKiss

05/30/07 10:59am pst

never help someone who can help themselves! never say never, and never ever say never ever. but by helping yourlself, you're already helping so many people by making yourself a better more stable person. so why help those who can already help themselves.. it only urts them. there are so many lazy fatalistic needy people who are that way because they never learned to be strong and they can do it - they just are babies. Some people need help - and never ask for it - some people ask for it and really do need it but then they suck you in and have no consideration of your own needs until they skin you to the bone. its all good my friend.

There was a man on the street corner in boston the other day that i didn't see but my friend tia, who is a devout practicing buddhist, saw that he was aged and partially blind and a little lost. And as i walked right past him she stopped right in front of him and said sir do you need help? And i saw his face light up so bright and he threw up his hands and gave a laugh and - in an East Indian accent said something like "god bless you! my angel!" And she hugged him... tho he was needy he didn't show it and he asked for nothing from anyone... he was from Allston.. he told us in broken english. He smelled of sandalwood and very nice. Tho his eyes were dim he was one of the brightest people in the entire downtown boston. He was looking for his bank. He even forgot the name of it and laughed embarransed... and we named a few and he said YES!!! thats it!!! Citizens! and I followed as she led him to the door and inside. He was so sweet he actually got the door for us after some fumbling, tho i was so stupid.. i didn't think of going in and helping him further. All this time, i dind't know he was hard of seeing. he thanked us and shook our hands... and hugged and everything - all over just such a small thing. As we left i asked Tia if she could understand anything he was saying... because i wasn't able to mostly. She said she just knew he was part blind and having a hard time. Anyways im making a lot of typos so im gonna wrap this up.

over time i may have grown dull to the needs of others, but now i'm reminded how much it helps my heart when someone happens to cross my path, and the exchange is so natural... like how things are probably meant to be after all.

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