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Last night I went out for the first time in Cambridge for ages, and I got freshers flu. Grrr, damn them scabby freshers! How typical is that?
I feel horrible. I feel extra horrible because my housemate tells me I need to take it easy and rest up, which means I can't go to the gym and not going to the gym makes me grumpy. I'm rubbish at being ill as I hate sitting still and wasting time. I always have to be doing something to keep the constant innate guilt at bay.
So today, I read a lot and did a lot of baking. I actually really enjoyed it but I still got guilt, which in turn made me grumpy.
I made pumpkin and butternut squash pasties with a huge beetroot and spinach salad (nuts and seeds and balsamic vinger, olive oil, lettuce, onion, grated courgette... nom nom nom!) and I even baked jam tarts. That was good, and I fed them to my housemates.
Now Im cold and my tummy hurts and all my housemates are off doing their own thing whilst I sit and suffer. Being ill makes me vulnerable and right now I feel really alone :'(
I want someone to pity me, and stroke my hair and warm me up soup and moan at me when I try to avoid taking medicine and insist on going out in the cold. I want them to cook for me and text me to check up on me, and put me to bed.
Fuck it, I'm lonely :(
I remember actually when I wasnt single and I was ill. My once-beautiful turned self absorbed and shitty boyfriend didn't come see me, or even check how I was. My woe ridden sighs fell on deaf ears and he just did not give a fuck. I think I prefer the loneliness I'm going through now to be honest.
I don't like being like this, I want someone. I'm too weak and tired and emotional. I want to warm my body up against someone elses in my bed tonight :'(
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Adreena
Thats so sweet of you <3
Need more guys like you about, clearly! x x
PhillipAnthony
the reason there are so few of us is because there arent enough girls like you who care about the nice guy so we all decide to join the club and become dicks
do you have aim? :)
Nyla
I too have stupid freshers flu (well similar..i work in a secondary school and its that time of year when everyone gets sick). Damn those stupid freshers anyway!!
Finch
While you should rest up and take it easy, sometimes keeping active helps heal faster than just laying around. Just make sure you hydrate and don't over do anything!
Adreena
Thankyou for the advice :)
I have a 9am lecture tomorrow... so no laying about for me, anyhow! bah! x x
Jerbear
what's this Freshers Flu? whatever it is it sounds way better then Swine Flu (not the actual illness but the name), at least you folks across the pond know how to name your illnesses something pretty like Freshers, we name ours the exact opposite of pretty and choose Swine... that just sounds gross haha okay im done with my little rant, i hope you feel better =) you're too pretty to be sad and lonely <3
Adreena
Haha, the name only originates from the new uni students (Freshers- didn't w have that term forced upon us by you guys??) all drinking and partying too much, getting ill from it, making out loads and preading it about. Hence, freshers flu. Whn you live in a university city, its kind impossible to avoid, even if you aren't kissing all the newbies, haha
But yeah.. it does sound nicer than Swin flu I guess!
Sumo813
Hope you feel better soon, hon! And Im sure every guy on here would love to be able to pamper you when you werent feeling well. I know I would. :) Get better! *hugs*
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if it makes you feel better, if i was closer i'd risk being sick to keep ya warm, grab your kitchen mits, and get your soup <3