I once had an ex boyfriend who tried to destroy my life. He was my biggest mistake and even after everything, I cannot forgive him and I never want to see him again. Today he messaged me on myspace. I still cant work out why. He said he had an album up with pictures of his dogs and turtles if I wanted to look. ?!?! Why would I want to look at his animals?? I don't even want to go on his profile at all. How can he afford all this crap?? He was on the dole for years. Hes always wasted money and had no maturity.

He also asked me if Id seen the book of some other site, and it was such a shame I never joined. I dont need modelling advice from him! I didnt join because it was so pornographic and that just aint my cup of tea. I remember him having a go at me for joining Godsgirls- saying I was too good for it... and then trying to pedal me to this other site! It as blatantly obvious he just didnt want me modelling when he couldnt show me off. What a joker.

I saw him at the last Torture Garden, constantly trying to catch my eye. I avoided him and clung on to Maxime Avet for dear life, hiding behind him. It was perverse how desperately he seemed to want to catch my eye. I wanted to be sick.

So i sent a very curt reply (why did that make me feel guilty?!) and blocked him. Ha! Howd'ya like them apples?

Eurgh.. Everytime I see him or hear from him it makes me feel physically sick. Physically sick to think about what that man did to me.