the regret of leaving the guy you thought was all wrong for you and you didnt have any feelings for but it turned out that maybe just maybee he was the right one.

but secretly (now its not so secret) i know hes not the best thing for me and I need  to do better...but fuckkk hes so beautiful oh god, it literally taked my breath away. Whats sad is that thats all I really liked about him, his personality was ok and he was nothing more than a cocky mother fucker who didnt think before he spoke and said whatever the fuck he wanted to whenever he wanted to...yea he was like a guy version of me!

He wasnt really anything thattt legit or diffrent...it was more like arm candy. It was a relationship full of bomb sex and being hot together. It was such a waste of time for me I know it and Im happy Im not with him anymore.

With all that said I honestly dont understand why care about him so much now..like um hes the first thing i think of in the morning, the last thing i think about when I go to sleep..and even dream about him..or like hes in my dream.....weirddd huh?

man oh man...i think i fucked myself this time guys

xoxo