Adelina

the regret of leaving the guy you thought was all wrong for you and you didnt have any feelings for but it turned out that maybe just maybee he was the right one.

but secretly (now its not so secret) i know hes not the best thing for me and I need  to do better...but fuckkk hes so beautiful oh god, it literally taked my breath away. Whats sad is that thats all I really liked about him, his personality was ok and he was nothing more than a cocky mother fucker who didnt think before he spoke and said whatever the fuck he wanted to whenever he wanted to...yea he was like a guy version of me!

He wasnt really anything thattt legit or diffrent...it was more like arm candy. It was a relationship full of bomb sex and being hot together. It was such a waste of time for me I know it and Im happy Im not with him anymore.

With all that said I honestly dont understand why care about him so much now..like um hes the first thing i think of in the morning, the last thing i think about when I go to sleep..and even dream about him..or like hes in my dream.....weirddd huh?

man oh man...i think i fucked myself this time guys

xoxo

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading suddelly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.

-A Fine Frenzy